2013年2月4日月曜日

Novel | When he had blue dream6(Story of the mother, empty lot)


Novel | When he had blue dream6(Story of the mother, empty lot) 

As soon as she had finished dinner, she hurried to her work place.
Before dinner she phoned there, she will be late a bit.

She really wanted to have dinner with Rintaro, her son today.
Today is Rintaro's birthday.
Her job is water business, so a little easy to manage time compare to office work.
Another younger girl should be fill the her place.
She used to swap the sift when Rintaro's had high fever and so on.
Her absence doesn't really affect her work place.
It will be replace anytime. During cut down their living expenses. Although it's better to earn more money, due to her job, she rarely had meal with Rintaro so far.  
She hardly remember to have meal with him since he grew up ten or eleven year's old.

She called him that She will go to work, then she left the house.
On the way which walked and got used to the station, she stopped  and sat down the bench at a big apartment's community place.

Stars were shining in the sky. Really beautiful sky, it was.

When opening the box of a cake, she was excited rather than the son was, but somewhat glad to be somewhat shameful. 
When sky was seen, she was becoming good anyhow in work, and when she phoned her work place and resting today, it returned toward the apartment. 


The light was on in the room. Rintaro was not there when she opened apartment's door. The remaining of the cake was  still on the table.

She put the handbag down and sat down in font of a dresser.
She gave whiff a sigh and gazed her face reflected in the mirror.
The button of the shirt was removed sequentially from the top. 
Underwear is taken and its breast is projected on a mirror.

After a son sleeps, she sometimes does so and opens her breasts in front of a dressing table. 
Her breast looks just like the candle which attached fire and has burned out. Because she lost both of breasts in a breast cancer. 
When she notice that a breast does not return even if she sees how many times, she is in front of a mirror.
Rintaro was born, lumpiness was immediately found in the breast, breast of one of the two was lost, and breast of one of the two has already been lost after half a year. 
She lost breasts.

She feel that the expression that the hole was vacant rather than lost is nearer. 
The vacant lot emptily used as the body and the heart is made, and she is gazing at the vacant lot in front of the mirror. 

To be continued

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